The End of an Era

It's been over a week now since I've been back home from Queen's.
Unfortunately, I've been hit again with a sudden sense of depression and dread.
I can't believe that school has ended and since I've been back, I still feel like I'm a student who's going back to school after the summer. But no, the reality is that I'm DONE! Queen's was amazing, the best time ever, the best experience I've ever had, and I also met the greatest people and friends. It was definitely the place to foster determination and challenges. I'm very proud of myself for attending and graduating!

But what's been getting to me is this: What do I do now?! After gaining all these new skills and abilities, I still feel like I have so much to accomplish! I've been thrown into a huge ocean with no specific direction and no means to get there. I think this is what I've been depressed about. What do you do now?!

So since I can't solve this problem right now, I might as well be productive. Sure, this entire week I haven't done anything but sit on my ass, sleep, and eat, I should try my best to remain active. I don't exactly know what I'm going to do. So I should at least make a list of short-term goals I'd like to make before I go abroad on my BACKPACKING TRIP TO CHINA!!!! It won't start until the end of June, so I still have a little less than 2 months here. My plan to buy a place is pretty unrealistic. The time it takes to buy a place, make renovations, and find tenants is pretty long. I simply don't have the time. Fortunately, I've already raised enough equity from my house through a recent appraisal and remortgage. With about 100k in line of credit, I definitely should be able to start my investments, but I just need the time for it. For now, I should just do the research. Carrying out the research should set the foundation for purchases. That's what I'll try and do this month then.

I'll make a list of things to do in tomorrow's post.